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(no subject) [Jan. 9th, 2005|11:07 am]
[mood |highhungover]
[music |Ozzy]

slightly confused

way hung over

a hotass bartender bought me a drink, but i was so drunk i didn't even drink it

im still drunk right now

had a fun, crazy night
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(no subject) [Jan. 6th, 2005|07:05 pm]
face face face pool pool pool

house to myself
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(no subject) [Dec. 30th, 2004|02:02 pm]
i know why you are checking my journal, face
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(no subject) [Dec. 16th, 2004|10:13 am]
[mood |bitchybitchy]
[music |Lil Wayne]

i realized today, actually I have known for ever, that my parents are very bitter people. i don't know why. maybe cause their lives sucks bad. i mean, why can;t they just be cool for like a day. just one fuckin day. thats it. it will never happen. I will have to watch them aorund my kids cause i dont; want any of their bullshit ideals forced on them. All i really want, for real, is to wake up one day and hav a cool set of parents. someone who asks me about school, congratulates me on a good test or quiz, and asks me whats goin on. Do i have parents like that no. what do they do. they bitch,moan, sit around all day and do nothing, my dad gets bored and bitchy so everyone elses day is ruined, my mom doesn't have enough brains to stick up for anything. its so fuckin dumb. I can;t wait to just move away for them for like 5 years. i don;t want my kids growing up around a set of pessimistic people, cause thats all my parents are. Everything in life is bad, no matter what. I really think that there is a curse in this house that no one can be happy. They don;t even know that sometimes i just sit and wish they would act like a real set of parents. They think because they pay for school, that that is all the have to do. NO. Maybe you could talk to me once in a while, ask me whats up in life, maybe we could go out for a family dinner. wanna know when the last time we went out to a family dinner was, last year when ,mary and i got my dad an andiamos coupon for his birthday. that was the last fucking time we did anything as a family. fuck that. i am gona take my kids out, have family dinner night, good family ideals. this house never had family idelas, and never will

its sad when even your girlfriend says how shitty your family is. and hearing that makes me feel OOHHH sooo great. soory i am rambling about my parents, but i am just so frustrated. i really wished they lived 500 miles away. it makes me me feel like shit tosay that but thats how i feel. what a shame. well i gotta get ready for another bomb day in hell

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(no subject) [Nov. 24th, 2004|06:33 pm]
[mood |coldcold]
[music |tool]

my hands are cold---so's my life its seems---i lost some friends in death lost ---time with family---lost dreams---the time flew by---can't count the minutes the seconds to fast---whatever i'll end it with one dynamite blast---strapped to my chest with duct tape---it's to late--don't try to save me---it's just fate---I hate my myslef--i hate my life---you just wait---the revolutions coming with guns in its hand ---you never seen death run rampant stuck in your sheets like sand---children die everyday from starvation_disease--while you sit in your drive through orderin 4 double cheese

took bout 3 min cause i was bored
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(no subject) [Oct. 12th, 2004|03:17 pm]
[mood |depresseddepressed]
[music |sabac]

i hate you
i hate the world
that was fuckin bullshit
ruined my day
i am totally upset
**** was on my mind all weekend
i can't stop thinkin bout it
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(no subject) [Oct. 4th, 2004|12:11 pm]
[mood |groggygroggy]
[music |none]

Take the quiz: "What Is Your Kink?"

You think eating and sleeping are just things you do in between having sex! The problem with there only being 24 hours a day is that there just isn't enough time to cram in all the sex you crave. Your mating call is JUST DO ME!
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I'm no dust head [Sep. 30th, 2004|09:18 am]
[mood |angryangry]
[music |Mr. Cash "Ira Hayes"]

what up out there.  just sittin down here at the world of oppurtunities.  I love those early morning drives where a normal trip that is supposed to take 15 mintues takes alittle over 50 minutes.  Right.  I have to stay down here till 1:10 then bust hump to make it home.  Went out with Kempa last week, and accidently left him down in Detroit,.............. all night.  Haven't been that wasted since Lloyd was around.       We went out on tues again but not that wasted.  We went out last night too.  We told ourselves at like 3 pm at Quiznos that we were sick of drinking.  No drinking tonight was the census.  Then at like 9 watin for Jay, what do we do, go to some random bar.  ONly spent 5 bucks on a pitcher, but we were buzzed when we left(left out the beer's that came in bottles).  jesus, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol. some more jesus.  bluntz too, alot of them lately.  ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, god bless the U.S.  My afternoon schedule has been so random lately.  Mornings are the only time i know exacltly whats goin on.  Get up, shower, eat, school, homework, then by like 2 or 3 i am in random mode.  this random mode that i speak of usually gets me in trouble.  I'm so fuckin bored right now, i would go home and come back if it didn't cost me like 5 bucks in gas.    i don't even have class now until 11:45.  And i just realized i left my checkbook in the car.  fuckin great.  well i gotta go to get my checkshit fuckin junk


your face

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(no subject) [Sep. 10th, 2004|10:33 am]
[mood |calmcalm]

they might be the one to set me up
have their little brother wet me up
thats why i tote techs and stuff

great time at the bar. woke up this morning, early, training, sucked. i hate jump rope. it feels so good on the body though. well i dunno

representin BK's to the fullist
gats i'll pull
bastard duckin when Big be buckin
chicken heads be cluckin in my bathroom fucking
it ain't nuthin
you know Big be handlin
with the mac in the back door panelin
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ic [Aug. 27th, 2004|03:13 pm]
[mood |calmcalm]
[music |Mobb Deep-Survival of the Fittest]

it's been a while since i've been on. Little Lathan is over. Man he is a bitch when he doesn't get what he wants. Cry for mom, then dad, then wants to play with g.i.joes. i love him though. other than that, nuthin much has happened. everyone else sems to be goin back to school but i don;t start for another 2 weeks. yay. world of oppurtunities. wayne state university. catchy. anyway, i've just been stayin on the down low, just thinking about life. training has made me feel great, i should have never quit. i think if i hadn't, i wouldn;t have gotten my life on the wrong path. doens;t matter anyway. the dojo is now torn down. where half of it was, there is now a huge deck, i mean HUGE. you wouldn't even be able to tell that there was a building there. fuck that shit. i'm upset, i spent 5 and a half years there, sweat, some blood, teaching kids. now what the fuck am i gonna do. i am getting some equipement so i can train at home when he moves away. might try some bjj or judo or somethin. work is now letting people in my department go. my boy got pushed out, and he has been there longer than me. he doesn't think he can stay with these hours that they posted for him. i may be next. bumm-bum-bbbuuummmmmmmmmm

i sat back the other day and looked at my life. tried to discern the purpose that i was put here for. i still don't know. sometimes i wonder what we're all doin here. I watch t.v. and see dying children, bombs, bullet wounds, death, death, death, death. i just get fuckin depressed when that all i see. i go to work and what do i hear, people telling me how we live to long. great. thats what i have to look forward too, a crippled body and diapers. heeeyaa.
i love siting in establishments and watching people. faces, what there talking about. it makes me feel so small. every block you go down, there is a different house, different family, with a whole different bunch-o-problems. i need to move out. i want my own pad. maybe i can rant on later

im goin to get my hair cut
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